what do you feel???

you spent your own money more than a RM 1000 for a driving license but after that you cannot drive a car...

what the license for if you cannot drive...
just keep it in your wallet...
i'll never be a good driver if i'm just stay in the house...
experience make you a perfect driver..
if not perfect maybe close to perfect...

danger is everywhere!!!

REAL LIFE

OMG...
Things that I've been scared since I was in secondary school was actually happen
boys with their hands that can't stop touch a girl
I had just stop working because of this man
I'm not running away from this man or this challenge but I'm afraid I cannot control myself.....

I wished I can get back to become someone who really take care of my own pride
I missed my K.I(Ketua Imtiaz,potassium Iodide)
She's the one who had always remember me and my friends to become perempuan solehah
Studying in a girl school since I was in form 4 had saved me from these type of man
but now I've to take care of myself.......I'm afraid I can't

I know this is just a piece of obstacle that I've to face...
in the future that will be things that more challenging than this
for now I think this is the best that I can do...
stay away from this man and this type of life
working made me to become more socialize girl and a little bit not care about the right or wrong said by ALLAH...

From this I knew that I'm just a little girl that's not ready to face the challenge of real life
I've to learn a lot about the real life...

doakan

less than 1 month i've to face the biggest war as a school student in Malaysia..

less than 1 month i'm not going be label as a school student...

less than 1 month i will face the real life...

after 3 or 4 month I will know whether i win the war or not....

after 3 or 4 month I will know whether my dreams/ambition will come true or not..

after 3 or 4 month I will know whether I can fly to another country or not...

I just wanna all of you to pray for me...

I can win the war....

STRESS KE X???

I DON'T KNOWW.........
trial tinggal beberapa belas hari je ...
batuk x baik2 dah 3 weeks...
just wanna say for those who know me pray for my success..
chemist je x habis blajar lg...

RANKING MID YEAR

ranking mid year dah kuar...
Alhamdulillah..
walaupun menurun tp x sangka...igtkan dpt lg teruk...

dalam kelas no.13
dalam batch 50..
menurun last year 45..
tp still top 60..

dlm sejarah dpt ranking dlm kelas lebih 10..
x pernah dpt plng teruk last year no.7
dulu top 5 je...
masa dah berubah ada naik ngan turun
sekarang tgh kat bwh so hopefully trial naik blk..

trial lebih kurang 40 hari ..
tolak tidur x tahu berapa hari lg...
NAYLI..RADHI NGAN SEMUA DENDRO 1 BACK UP...
TRIAL 10A1

RESULT MID YEAR

ARGH....
dah dpt result no so bad and so good...
dpt 5A 2B 3C..

A1-math
A2- bio , add math , Pendidikan Islam, Bm
B3- math
B4 - chemistry
c5-Est , physics
c6- Bi

weh..malu giler chemist dpt B dah lah depart chemist suppose nye dpt A ni B4...
BI lg lah malu giler the lowest in the class/set..
sejarah pun x dpt A..
klau dpt chemist ngan sej A dah dpt 7A..
kelas Adioda rmai giler dpt 9A ngan 8A..
rasa rendah diri giler...
Bakerara jauh beza ngan Adioda padahal kelas ke 2 je habislah pas ni ngan cikgu...
mesti kena push giler ngan cikgu...

mid year ade lg 44 hari...
mati2 kena score lebih dr 8 ngan 9 klau nak mohon scholar MARA..
kena work hard dari skarang...

CANNOT UNDERSTAND!!!

ARGH!!!!
I'm not understand what I feel right now...
sad???excited???
what I know that I want to cry right now...

think of my mom..
regret for entering SESERI..
burden them..
don't know whether I can give what they expect from me..

It's hard for being the "cleverest" in the family
high expectation..

sometimes I regretted for entering the best school in Malaysia..
with my younger sister with me...
it increase my parents burden..
at school every week we eat chicken rice..,'nasi minyak'
but at home my mom just eat fry egg,fish and sometime chicken..
I know that my mom love us..she doesn't want us to know..
but we're big enough to know..
she gave everything that we wanted eventhough she did not have money...

she gave support to me..
to keep study..don't think about her..
but I can't..
she keep saying "study so you'll not become like me.."

she surprised when I told her this morning that there's still fee to pay..
dobi and sanitact RM 92 per semester..
it's already second semester but I still not pay for the first semester..
imagine..mine 2 semester RM 92 x 2
my younger sister RM 92 x 2...

my dad said that don't worry about money..
it's his job to find money..
just tell him what to pay and he'll give it...

for me there's nothing can stop me to get the best result..
I just don't want anyone to suffer for me..
I want to stay at home and stay with my mom cos she don't have anyone to express her feeling
and I want to be beside her..
but I can't..

I will get the best result that no one have give it to my parents..
but I cannot stand seeing my parents struggle to find money
just to make sure we stay in SESERI..

Doa
Usaha
Ikhtiar
Tawakal

I hope that all of you pray for my success cos
next year on March I'll make my mom cry happily because of me..
no one in my family ever get 11 A 1
including my cousins from a rich family..
I don't want my mom worry anymore that we're poor and her children cannot success
but we're poor but we can success if we want it..