BESOK

Esok 31/10 hari terakhir dalam bulan october....
November akan menjelma...
Hari ini 30/10 mia baru jer kembali ke kolej selepas seminggu cuti deepavali...
Cuti yang langsung tak produktif

Mia tak study pun untuk test ode selasa ni...
Mia siapkan presentation bi then lappy crash then sumer hilang
N mia kena buat balik...
Mia tak buat lagi chemistry lab report...
Mia kena buat conclusion and recommendation and reference
Mia tak study lagi untuk test introduction to chemical engineering....

N sumer tu untuk masa datang.....

Sepanjang cuti banyak benda yang terjadi kat mia...
Sesungguhnya allah itu maha mengetahui
N semua itu pasti ada baik n buruknya....
N kita sebagai hambanya perlu yakin atas segala ketentuannya....

P/s : to you who u are....
please don't hurt urself because of me....

TONIGHT

malam ni seriously mia tiba-tiba tak der mood....
mia tak tahu sebab apa....
pms??? study??? or paper jer lah...
yang sure mia TAK DER MOOD....

mia tak der mood????
macam maner rupernyer mia x der mood....
biler mia tak der mood maknanyer...
semua benda akan jadi tak kena...
n mia akan nangis x berhenti
mia cuba untuk kurangkan kekurangan mood tu dengan dengar lagu sambil buat ODE...
n guess wat....
this time it doesn't work out....

then jam menunjukkan pukul 10 pm
so masa untuk study thermodynamics
mia buat short notes n sebagainyer...
then when it comes to do exercise on that topic....
1st question...yeahhh...i've got the answer...
2nd question...pas pening2...belek2 buku....after half an hour...
okk...let's move to the next question....
3rd question....still blur n mia tak tahu pun nak gerak even 1 step...
okk...i had started to give up....

n the worse is...
while working on the thermo exercise...
i was crying...had been afraid...cos most of senior will failed on this subject
n supposely this subject for 2nd sem student...
half of students in my class was a repeat students...
and even dean said that supposely this subject is for 3rd and 4th year students
not 1st year students...
how come i'm only in 1st sem and maybe i would failed in this subject
come on ar....baru 1st sem kot...x kan nk fail...

okk....crying while working on thermo???
didn't i've said earlier that i've no mood...
so smer bnda pun jadi x kena...

n from all of this...
only u i've been thinking of to talk to...
cos i have to talk with someone in order for me to recover
n i've nobody here...all the person that i had always talked to is not here...
n what i get from u was...a greater dissapointment...
i'm seriously hurt by u...
i'm a person that not easily getting hurt...by harsh words...or harsh attitudes..
so if i'm getting hurt...it does hurt me a lot....
so dunno when will i be recover....

smhow terpikir...
why would i enter engineering when i'm bad in physics...
am i already ruining my future...
hmmmm....